It’s tough to put such a large feeling into words. As I began to write my own “Why I Write”, I found myself struggling to find the balance between writing a deeper explanation of my motivation to write, while not regressing into a stream-of-consciousness that nobody wants to read. The reason this is not as easy as I would like is the essence of the topic. It’s like someone asking you why you pursue a hobby you are incredibly passionate about, but restricting you to a few sentences. Most people, when presented with the opportunity to share their feelings on their individual motivations, allow their words to spill forth, often slipping into an unfiltered, grammatically-incorrect account about their passion. And sometimes you hear people end their bubblings with a weary exclamation, “Well…it’s something you just have to experience”, or “It’s tough to put into words”.
This is where I am at in my “Why I Write” essay. I want to write something clean, flashy, memorable, and emotionally charged. It’s not every day you are tasked with putting to paper such a personal desire like the desire to write. It’s almost like asking an extrovert why they enjoy the presence of people, why they feel the need to entertain others, or similar personal questions. It brushes on a deeper question, the question of deep fulfillment. I do have a central arc planned, however. One could almost say a missions statement (even though I’m not a huge fan of them). I want people to understand how I brainstorm ideas. I don’t sit in a chair and think. It’s a daily, monthly, yearly instinct. Whenever I’m listening to music, especially walking to class, I find myself visualizing my own movie trailers, which is slightly silly, yet I can’t seem to shake it. This starts the ball rolling for what the movie would be about, which eventually causes me to say, “Hey, this story would be awesome, I should write it.” And then, the next track comes on, and the process starts over. Multiply this by pretty much every school day, and I begin to filter the better stories, logging the better ones into my memory, and then I begin to write. I write because I want people to experience a story that makes them forget their reading a book. A typical writer’s goal, but I am really aiming for that immersible experience where hours pass by unnoticed. If I can relate this desire/feeling in my piece, I will be satisfied.