Things are coming along. I’m finishing up my remediation project. I spent a long time last night trying to revise my spoken word poetry script to add more rhyme and repetition into the beginning of the poem. It turned out to be much harder than I thought. I realized that the more I focus on being informative, the harder it is to rhyme/make the words “sound” better, but once I focus on just connecting with the audience it just became much easier.
I started rehearsing for my performance on Friday at the Open Mic at North Quad. Ya’ll should come out and see me embarrass myself! Actually no, bad idea. As I told my housemate last night, I have stage fright even without an audience. It’s terrible. And kind of funny. But I think it’ll be fun to try something new. I used to be more involved with performances–piano recitals, musicals, orchestra concerts, etc–and I actually kind of miss it, which is totally surprising. This will be my attempt to reconnect with the performance world, but in a way I’ve never done before.
I recorded my rehearsal last night, and definitely had some interesting insights and doubts about myself. I realized the difficulty of stage presence. So I went on Youtube to look up a couple of my favorite spoken word poets to see how they expressed themselves through hand gestures, body language, and facial expressions. I have to say, it ain’t easy. I think I have a tendency to appreciate things a lot more once I attempt to emulate them myself.
It’s not going to be a life-changing, epic, grand performance, and I’m sure it won’t be the one of the BEST performances I’ll ever give, since I have absolutely no experience with spoken word poetry. But I’m excited about taking this risk. It doesn’t have to be mind blowing. I would be disappointed if it were so-so, or just plain “okay.” I’m aiming for a solid “good.” “Minna rehearsed a lot, tried really hard, and she really wanted this to work, and it was good.” When it comes to taking risks, sometimes “good” is all you need to be really happy.