In-class work days are a blessing. (Thank you, Shelley.) I felt my momentum build this morning as I finally dug into my “First Draft” Google Doc on Suggesting Mode. I find great satisfaction in seeing old type crossed out and replaced with new green words—like fresh grass.
Ahhh, I can almost smell it. ^..^
I’ve felt a little bogged down by all of our assignments in preparation for the re-purposing project. There’s been a lot of analyzing, reading, and researching, but very little actual writing. Getting into the actual material felt like a breath of fresh air. The feelings of inspiration I felt in class this morning were also partly due to the fact that I was listening to this soul-warming song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3DM9fGXHhlk. Plus, I felt super prepared from the preparatory assignments.
There’s a freshness and innocence to beginnings. They’re scary, no doubt—the continuously blinking cursor of a new document has haunted every writer. But there is endless potential to that blank page. It’s like meeting someone who you think is cute, and then thinking about your life together as a married couple later that night before bed. There’s a sweetness to that fantasy, and even though you don’t consider the harsh realities of the situation, that moment of possibility is valuable on its own. I guess, as I write this blog post, I see me and my project in our honeymoon phase. We’ve been seeing each other for awhile, I think about them a lot, we even got married when I chose them as my re-purposing piece. I’ve gotten cold feet, lost interest, gained interest. And here we are now, feeling optimistic about our future.
However, I do have some concerns. I am writing an advice column, yet I’m not entirely confident that I am the best advice-giver. I definitely don’t always know what to think of situations, how to react to adversity, or overcome challenges. I might look back on my finished project in twenty-years and laugh at my own naiveté. This is scary, because I may end up feeling silly by writing this piece. However, I’m kind of excited by that possibility… (I’m a masochist, by the way.) When I looked back at middle-school journal entries, like the one in which I printed and taped a 20-page long AIM conversation with my then crush, bballboi95, I laugh at myself with sweet joy. This project, whether I see it as a failure or a success at the end of the semester, will serve as a relic for my personal time machine. That’s really exciting.
Throughout the rounds of drafts and stages of development, I am going to ask for a lot of feedback. I will ask my peers what they think, not only about my writing, but about the messages within my advice column. I will also ask my sister and friends to give their input. The most helpful contribution from peers and friends will be their honesty. I am asking, with all sincerity, to please please be honest. I think if I’m writing an advice-column, I should be strong enough to take some criticism…