A challenge I’ve continuously faced in my writing career is the fear of starting. You will never see me arriving late anywhere, yet this concept of being early seems to fall short in the academic realm of submitting assignments. I am a notorious procrastinator. I marvel at people’s ability to start drafts weeks in advance. I’m jealous of people who aren’t awake at 3am the day a paper is due while I’m half-consciously adding finishing touches.
For example, last semester I was in an English class that informed in the syllabus us we could write an extra credit essay that would be due a couple of weeks before the final. Over the course of the semester, I knew I needed to do it, but there was always something that seemed more pressing. And there I was at 11pm the night before it was due, finishing Dante’s Inferno. I proceeded to write a three and a half page paper, not going to sleep until 3:30am. (Fun fact, I left my keys at the apartment and had to call my cousin to come let me into the building because my roommate was asleep.)
(How I felt finishing the paper)
I know that for this class I will have far too much to do to leave it to the last minute. I’ve spent more than a week trying to determine the pieces I want to include, formatting them into PowerPoint, excel, and word documents. I’ve gone over the preliminary things multiple times but find myself struggling to get into the real meat of the project. I’m not exactly what I’m afraid of… Messing up? Not being interesting? Not being able to execute what I set out to do? Maybe jumping right in to research will help getting over this fear? (I feel that fear is not the right word.) I just need to figure out how to get out of my own way.