I remember the first couple weeks of our capstone classes. We talked about what makes a project so successful, and we all landed on that you have to be invested in the topic that you’re writing about – you have to care. I saw this passion in so many projects – from the Sinking Cities project to Michelle Kuo’s Reading with Patrick. The creators of these projects were so passionate, and I could tell that I began to have a passion for their various topics, as well. That’s what makes these projects so successful in my eyes- the writers care, but so does the audience.
I don’t know when this unbearable fear of no one caring about my work became something I thought about constantly when writing, but I do think I know where it started. I was delivering a speech at my high school graduation, and I wanted as much feedback on it before speaking in front of the entire school. I had SO many people read my speech, and every time they gave it back to me, it was covered in red corrections. I usually didn’t mind and loved the feedback, but I remember one point of feedback I had gotten – “are you sure you don’t want to talk about something else?” I was mortified- was the content of my speech so unbearable that I should write something else?
I don’t know why, but I’ve carried that with me. I carried it into every college writing class. I couldn’t help it- I was always thinking “what if no one cares?” That’s the worst possible feedback I can get. I would rather have someone hate my work- at least it raises a reaction.
I think this Capstone project is making me incredibly nervous because it’s a topic that I care so deeply about, but I have never written about. Does anyone actually care about holistic health (besides the people in the holistic community?) I’m not really sure, but I guess I’ll find out. If anyone has any idea how to mitigate writing fears such as this, please let me know!