As others begin posting their final capstone sites on social media, sending it in emails and groupchats, I remain hesitant. Posting my project site on Facebook is a very scary thought. Despite my best attempts to make it “conversational,” I anticipate that my capstone on Biraciality will be inaccessible to many people in my close social circles. The biracial experience is incredibly nuanced, even for those who experience it. This was a major source of conflict for me in my writing—I never felt like I was fully doing the topic justice. I eventually learned that I would never achieve that feeling, as no one person could do so.
With that being said, I worry that my readers may not understand this nuance and the individuality that my project represents. I plan on sharing it, but I may need some time first. Time to think, to reflect, and even to continue writing. Being proud of the work you have put in, yet hesitant about reception of the topic, is a difficult place to be in. However, it feels wonderful to be (temporarily) done and to have a product that makes so many of my lifelong experiences something tangible. Sharing is simply the next thing on my “to do” list.