Looking at my four pitches, there are three things that can be easily discerned:
- I want to do something more creative and of personal value rather than academic or practical for resume-building.
- I am a poet, an observer, a nostalgic, and a lover of stories.
- If it doesn’t have a semi-catchy title already in the works, it’s not for me.
When I think about it, none of those things really surprise me about my work, and that’s an exciting (and intimidating) place to be as a writer. It means I know myself – or, at least, I’m getting closer to – but it also means that there’s no arguing with the grinning child in me who demands more paint rather than a nice pencil.
So, all I can do is sigh.
But, truly, I think it will be alright. Talking through my ideas with my partner helped me understand the situation for what it was: a passion project. And if I’m not “all in” about what I’m making, I’m probably going to struggle more than if I had undertaken the thing my heart was set on in the first place.
Taking another look at my pitches, something that is less discernable (but still strikingly evident to a perceptive eye) is that two or three of my four pitches are all getting at the same thing: I want to write and share my stories – either as poetry, creative nonfiction, or both. I want to revisit the experiences that have shaped me, and I want to believe that I am as important as to have learned something worth sharing from the short life I’ve lived thus far.
So, call me conceited. Call me reflective.
Call me thrilled.
Whatever you call me, please allow 3-5 business days for a response.
After all, you can’t expect to interrupt an artist when they’re elbows-deep in their work.