Buddha type reflection

Rhyme Scheme, vocal delivery, brain storming, emotional content, such loaded topics that I never thought that I’d learn about when I took this course that I know have a slight grasp on.

My biggest desire I wanted from this course was to gain something different then my other writing courses, something beyond conventional writing tips and I can safely say at this point that I’ve gained it.

I’ll admit that I could of been a wayyy – emphasis on the way – better student in general, but the way that this class impacted me was damn near magical honestly.

When I write music, I feel like I have a voice.

Not saying that I don’t have a voice now but if you hear me in real life – unfortunately if you are currently reading this blog post you’ve probably never heard the real me talk as well – its scripted and polished for me to get what I want and to avoid conflict. But when I write music and can grab conflict from the horns and sometimes even actively seek it.

I hope I write music after this course. I’d like to say that this class has established music writing as a solid avenue for me to get my feelings out but honestly I’m worried that this oasis of freedom could be lost as I fall back into the rutt of things next semester, but I will say this as someone still currently in the moment of enjoying making music –

damn has it been fun.

Deep Fried Frenz

Never thought it’d be this hard to be open on a project that I personally worked on for a class but here we are.

It’s been very implicit for me throughout this semester, in the way that I never really thought about why I didn’t want other people to view what I was working on, I simply accepted it as an unchangeable reality.

Two days ago, I was recording some vocals for my final project with a friend of mine, who I was hesitant to let me see record, but because we both listen to pretty similar music, I thought “What harm could come of it?”

Allowing him to hear me record music has honestly been one of the most fun experiences that this class has provided me.

Being able to hear someone critique my lyrical delivery, really helped me develop my own personal music voice, which is completely different then my current voice (surprised me a lot actually) while at the same time I we were goofing around trying to make what I’d previously written sound much cooler.

Being open to showing your work is rewarding, shout out Nathan.

Delivery

So for my final project I’ve been working on making a small EP (extended play) composed of initially three songs, but currently has been cut down to two and the biggest struggle so far when it comes to making music is delivery.

When just listening to music it’s very easy to disregard the thought process that goes inside the singers head as they are reciting lyrics but I’d argue that this mindset is actually more important then even the vocals or the beat because this mindset manifests itself into how the vocals of the song are delivered.

For one of the songs that I’ve been working on for this final EP, I’ve been experimenting with different types of delivery because you’d be very surprised how often mispronunciation, realizing that a line sounds like utter dog shit, or realizing that you’ve gone off beat occurs when you’re recording a song, and we haven’t even touched on the delivery of the vocals yet. When it comes to just recording a song it honestly feels like driving an old ass train that could go off the rails for at any minute but when it does get to it’s destination, damn is it satisfying.

highways

I’m struggling with the final project for a very water to oil reasons.

What is an oil to water reasons you say?

I’m going to assume that your guessing that it deals with two particular aspects of my projects that just don’t seem to mix, but in reality I’m actually talking about an oil & water-based garnish I’m preparing for my final project which is actually a salad.

Jokes aside, the aspect of my project I’m thinking about changing is the beat production for the songs that I’m making.

I don’t want to be restricted to hip-hopish beats anymore because I feel that the persona I’ve created for this class shouldn’t be limited to just those beats but at the same time, he was created FROM hip-hop music.

Sometimes, a man wants to mix up his salad dressing/music production choice.

Perhaps a red wine vinagrette next time.

looking foolish

The more work I do into my project the more I wonder why I haven’t heard or read of studies around the significance of personas within the music.

I assume the only reason that there’s been a significant disconnect between the popularity of music personas within genres like hip-hop & rap is due to the audience. (Also, before moving on I want to acknowledge that other music genres also oftentimes have music personas but for the sake of this blog post, I’m going to dwell mainly on hip-hop.)

When I say audience I cautiously say individuals of color who are oftentimes ignored when mental health problems are discussed both within and outside of their respective communities. Talking about mental health is something I’d argue has recently started to become normalized but only within specific socio-economic & ethnic categories. When delving into the problems that the countless communities of color face, discrimination, alienation, or even socioeconomic disparity quickly come to mind but sadly enough mental health is something that is oftentimes left on the back burner.

powder room

It’s weird for me to think about what went wrong about this experiment because it exploded – or imploded? – into something that I never would have expected. I never thought that writing song lyrics would be not only as fun, but as revealing as it as, but this whole experiment made me do a lot of self-reflection that I wonder is more a critique of myself then a critique of the way than that of the experiment. A lot of what I wrote was very measured and powdered, and I feel very mixed about it because something that I value immensely in music I listen to is genuineness, so if I can’t write genuinely about my topics what does that say about my self? None of the raw opinions, views, or even experiences I’ve had were included within my writing, and when I reflect and think of the worth of the piece as a whole after thinking that, it’s very disheartening.

I’m thinking about recording a song over a beat for my new experiment, but a couple of worries I have are:

  1. Lyrical Delivery, (I’d argue this is the most important topic of the list, hense it being number one hehe)
  2. Lyrical Content
  3. Overall Clarity
  4. Chosen Beat
  5. The fact that I’ve never made a song before and I’m really just making all this along as I go through the process.


strong hmms

So after the minor in writing, I’m actually very excited to start my research on my “experiments”. The only hesitation that I had about this course dealt mainly with the mediums that I would be allowed to use when it comes to expressing my ideas and the amount of liberty that we have within the minor of writing to express ourselves is incredibly enlightening. I’m currently thinking about focusing on writing three different songs, potentially just writing the song for the first experiment, maybe actually recording another written song for the second experiment, and potentially making a music video for the last song. I am slightly worried that what I want to do for my experiments goes outside of the realm of what we’re allowed to do within the course but until im told no I’m going to continue dreaming of songs I want to write.

Discomfort.

(Gateway Mcdaniel)

Discomfort. It’s an interesting term for me because, during my time here at the University of Michigan, I’ve personally thought of this term in a positive sense. Many situations, whether academically, socially or even financially, regardless of how uncomfortable I feel, I understand that I will always gain something from the experience. However, putting aside my personal definition of discomfort and sticking to the more conventionally accepted way, the article I read dealt with an analysis of a recent tennis championship. What made this article uncomfortable to me was the fact that I don’t give a rat’s ass in the slightest about anything sports-related, and to read a piece that’s not only sports-related but one that analyzes trivial performance inconsistencies, and debates aged rules was honestly worse than hell for me. It, however, was intriguing to read about the ongoing rivalries of the new tennis players versus the old ones, with the old tennis players defending their rusted, worn-out Championship Titles from the eager green eared newbies. It was something I never expected myself to enjoy reading about and the further on the author went about talking about the impact of age to a tennis player – which makes sense for literally any athlete, but it’s not something I personally consciously think about – was another very intriguing part of the story. Overall, it was surprising to find interesting nuggets of information in a what I’d previously consider a pigsty of a topic.