The End.

Just like that, the semester is ending and I am now done with this project. Working on this project was nervewracking, inspiring, a lot of learning and discovering and amazing. However, I won’t lie, I am glad it is done. Getting to this final product was not so easy and it is mostly my fault. I love to think things through and actually write them down just before the end comes. Once again, this is what I have done with this project but really I feel like this project would never be fully done. I could probably add more to it every day. A thought. Something I read. A quote from a movie. I just might if one day I find myself wanting to add something new and exciting that I have discovered. But for now, it is done. The end of this project.

https://mbarjol.wixsite.com/w420

 

The Last One

Wow. This semester as gone by so fast. I can’t believe that it is already the end.This is the last challenge Journal that I will be writing and I feel like it was just yesterday that I was writing my first one about Rituals. It feels crazy to me that in just a few days my entire project will be done and I will be graduating. It is bittersweet. I remember felling the exact same way when my Gateway class ended. I loved this class and I have loved working on this project. Here is a look back on my challenge and what I wish I would have known/done/had.

TIME:

I feel like at the beginning of the semester I felt like I had all the time in the wolrd to finish that project. I did not. All of the sudden I was out of time and still had so much that I wanted to do. Researching is great but spending all your time reading books even if you love them and like to learn new stuff is not going to get your project done. I have read many books but I have not written about them half as much as I thought I would. Don’t waste all of your time and energy into one thing. I am a professional prograstinator. My best work is done at the last minute. I am not even saying this to try and explain myself. My best work really gets done at the last minute. Every single time I have finished some papers really earlier, before the deadline I ended up with a bad grade. Everytime I wrote something last minute, with just all of it already finished up in my mind, I pulled through and ended up with some of my best papers. However, in such a big project it is a good idea to start writing things before the last day. Even I didn’t.

MOTIVATION:

The problem with writing about a topic like Wicca, which I got interested in because of a TV show is that watching another episode always sounds like a good, valid excuse. IT IS NOT. Even when I would get an idea or a whole page of things I could write about in my head I would never do it right away. I can do it later. It’s fine. Let me tell you something. You probably won’t have more motivation tomorrow so just get it over with and write it down now.

TALK:

It might seem weird but talking is so helpful. Talking with my roommates, people in my classes and professors about my project has helped me a lot because everyone has a different idea on everything nd anything. Let me tel you that as far as Wicca, nobody refused to talk to me about what they though because they were intrigued but in addition, not two people really thought about it the same way. It was really interesting to hear different things about my project and the topic of my project because they were ideas and thoughts that I would not have think of myself.

STOP:

Sometimes, or Often, it is a good idea to stop for a second. Stop thinking about the project, stop reading about your topic, stop going places you go for your project, just stop. Do something else, think of something else or you might just turn yourself crazy. So breath in, Breath out and go do something else. You got this!

Wix has failed me

I have used Wix for many, many, many classes and many, many, many websites. But as I am working on the look of my project, WIX has decided to make it hard for me. It stops. It loses some of my work. It changes some of my design. It is driving me nuts. Recently I have had quite a few ideas as to what to do with my laptop…

I do not understand. I have never had a problem with WIX. I know that everything that I want to do with my project is possible on Wix but it won’t let me do it in peace. This is the whole reason why I started working with WIX. Because during my getaway class I found it so hard to work with WordPress that I decided to switch. However, I do not want to switch from WIX to another one because I really enjoy working with WIX. I might have to go see the people on North Campus or in the MLB who know everything about computers because I am desperate. I don’t know if it a problem with my laptop, the website or me. But this needs to be fixed because I remember working on a website I did not understand and It was not great. I just need to find a solution to this so I can go back to be at peace while working on my project.

Committing is Hard

I chose my topic. I know what I want to write about but I have a hard time committing to how or what I am doing with that topic. I feel like maybe I do not know enough about it yet? The fact that I love a TV Show about Witchcraft does not make me an expert on Witchcraft and now that I have decided that this is what I am going to write about it feels like I have no idea what to do with it. No idea that I have feels good enough.

I go from an academic more history based project to a fun 21st-century Witchcraft project with 10 other ideas in between. Nothing seems like the perfect project to me. I like the topic so much that I want everything to be perfect but in the end, I can’t commit to anything and that will hardly make anything perfect.

I feel like I have rarely had that problem in the past. I usually have an idea as soon as the assignment is given and then I brainstorm it and something comes to my mind and here it is. I have a final product. But for this project, it seems as if there is more Storming than Brain and I cannot seem to commit to anything I come up with. The only other time I remember feeling this way was during my Gateway class when I had to choose which one of my past work I would be working on. I remember coming up with three different work that I had liked but also felt could be worked on more and improved but when it was time to commit to one I could not decide which one I actually wanted to use. I had to talk with my professor and other students in my groups to make a decision.

I have been thinking that maybe I should just start doing some research, some readings or even write something but even that I have a hard time deciding on which way to go, where to start. So for right now, I will just tell myself to start and eventually, it will take me somewhere. Hopefully.

Let’s get to work!!

Challenge Journal 1: I don’t do Rituals

I don’t do rituals. They freak me out. I feel like I am more of a “going with the flow” kind of person, especially when it comes to writing. I don’t really like rituals as I feel like, if I had rituals before writing and I forgot to do one thing that is part of my “writing ritual” then I would not be able to write because I probably could not stop thinking about it. To me, rituals are like a “To-Do List” that you never actually finish and hate yourself for a while because of it.

I know that there are things that I do most of the time when I am about to write a paper or writing it but I can’t say that I do this all the time and that it matters to me whether or not I am doing those things. I merely am aware of this because of an essay I had to write in my Capstone Class “How I Write.” Even at the time, I had a hard time coming up with a list of things that I do as a writer because it is never the same. The only thing that I can say for sure that I do is thinking. Not really revolutionary but apart from that I can’t really come up with something.

I don’t write at the same place all the time, I don’t always write on the same laptop or in the same notebook, I don’t always have the same drink or food, sometimes I listen to music sometimes I don’t, sometimes I write everything at once and sometimes I write every other day. So yes, the only thing I actually do and could maybe count as a ritual if we are really flexible with what counts as a ritual is that I think.

Workshop Reflection

From as long as I can remember, I had only ever done one workshop in my college career. I always hated to show my peers my writing until it was finished and I was happy with what I had done. However, I have loved doing workshops this semester. It was scary at first having to show one of our piece of writing to everyone or commenting in someone else’s writing. However, I think that everyone in our class was always not only respectful but most importantly really helpful. Everyone’s comments were always specific with an idea to make the paper stronger and/or showing the author one part of the paper that was really strong and interesting to guide him or her into the right direction for revisions. The more we did workshops as a class and as a group, the more I was happy to show my work and get feedback and the better I got at giving stronger feedbacks to my peers. It also helped me when writing and revising my work.

Each and every one of us has a different way of writing and therefore we each find specific issues in each other work that we think can be improved and can give multiple ideas into how to improve a paper. I also think that we got to know each other style of writing better throughout the semester and therefore were able to give constructive feedback that the author could use while maintaining their own style of writing. Workshops for Project III were a lot of fun and I cannot wait to see all of our projects because they are so interesting and different that it makes it really nice to learn about it and listen, read or watch it.

Ocean

When I open my bedroom window, the wind comes right in, bringing in the salty smell of the ocean as the sound of the crashing waves comes to my ears, I can see the waves slowly crashing into the sand just in front of my eyes.

What a beautiful morning, I grab my running shoes, get on the beach, and start running while listening to the calming sound of the waves. I cannot resist, I start running closer and closer to the water until it finally reaches my foot.

Cold but nice. I mean I did much more, after all, it is Normandy. However, It won’t change my mind. As I keep running and getting deeper and deeper in the water. I give in, because why not?

My morning run once again finished as a refreshing swim.

A Writing Manifesto

Writing is liberating.

It can be LOUD, ANGRY, & MAD.

It can be Lovely, Heartfelt, & Happy.

Writing is for Fun or for Work, or why not Both.

It can be Shitty or Lovely, feel like Rubbish or Beauty.

Writing is to be read or burned no in between.

Writing is relieving or imprisoning but most of all,

writing is for the writer before the reader.

For Himself or Herself and maybe one day for EVERYONE ELSE.