What stuck me the most while going through the e-Portfolios is the vulnerability that is required by the creators. Each person is putting their work out there for people to view wholly. In one of the student’s portfolio, she described a piece of writing as the most vulnerable but honest she has been. Not only are individual pieces of writing vulnerable for the author, but also the entire portfolio exposes the author. One student said, “I hope you enjoy getting to know who I am through my website.” Letting someone get “to know who I am” is quite revealing. It seems like it would be a little jarring to present yourself, your writing, your ambitions to the world-wide web.
We have talked about vulnerability of writing a few times in class, especially the first day and throughout our discussions of the “Why I Write” pieces. Bloggers like Andrew Sullivan have to be vulnerable enough to put out writing that will be critiqued, argued against, and sometimes only half finished. Even in our readings about rewriting rough drafts, we heard about how we are going to have to put ourselves out there in our first drafts – our really terrible first drafts- and let people see our work. It’s what writers have to do all the time.
It took me a long time to figure out what vulnerability was, and I still don’t have a full grasp of it. We are stuck in this idea for so long (or at least I was) that we need to put our best foot forward. We have to hide our weaknesses, hide thoughts that might be controversial, don’t say anything until we know for sure. Fortunately, I have been learning what it means to let go of these ideas. I think it’s the first step to freedom, building relationships, and so many other things. I’m looking forward to the e-Portfolio as a growing step, not just in my writing career, but also my journey towards understanding vulnerability.