Finally figured out Why I Write

People ask me all the time if I love to write. I’m a writing consultant, a writing minor, and english has always been my favorite subject… so I guess the question makes sense. But I’ve always struggled to answer it. I don’t love to write like some of my classmates do: I don’t blog, write for a magazine/newspaper, or even journal. I dread being assigned a paper in class and more often than not, it takes me days of frustration and staring into space before I get any words on paper. I’ve always been relatively self conscious about the fact that I spend so much of my day writing (five classes, all writing based) because I don’t actually love to write. But,

this class has helped me change that.

Now, when I go to start a paper, I don’t negatively compare my writing to my classmates. Everyone writes for different reasons and because of that, everyone has a different style and exigency for each assignment.

Despite my newfound acceptance of my writing process, when we were assigned our first paper for the class it’s fair to say I seriously struggled. I definitely knew why I didn’t write– I’m not an aspiring author and it doesn’t relieve any anxiety (usually quite the opposite, actually). I don’t feel empowered with every word I write and I don’t feel Maya Angelou’s agony when she expressed, “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you” (although I really wish I did). But even though writing may not affect me in the same emotional way as it does some people, it will help me accomplish my goals. And,

this class has helped me figure that out. 

As I’m sure all of you know by now, I want to go to law school. I’m not sure where I’ll go from there, but I know I want to get a law degree and end up in the criminal justice system someway or another. I can’t do any of this without writing, and I can’t do any of this well without writing exceptionally. The writing minor allowed me to improve my writing and explore modes of writing that will help me throughout my life–even if that life ends up having nothing to do with writing.

I know the blog prompt didn’t ask why I write. I also know we’ve already written a five page paper on the matter. But,

This class showed me, and helped me come to terms with, why I write.

For that I will always be grateful.

2 thoughts to “Finally figured out Why I Write”

  1. Emily,

    Now that we’ve been in the same blog group for the past few weeks, I feel like I have gotten a pretty well-rounded sense of you as a writer through your blog posts, remediation project, and ePortfolio progress. As you touch on in the post above, you begun feeling more self-conscious about your writing in comparison to your peers. In my opinion, you have nothing to be self-conscious of!

    First of all, you’re pursuing a law degree, a goal more ballsy than I would ever have the confidence to approach. Second of all, you’ve been able to identify what skills will aid you most in pursuit of that goal, namely your writing skills. The projects I’ve read of yours thus far, little or small, have the sophisticated, argumentative language fit for a courtroom and have stuck well to your criminal justice theme.

    I’m glad that you’re able to realize this and can attribute it in part to why you write! I can’t wait to see where you are with your projects after break!

  2. Hi Emily,

    I want to say congratulations on figuring out a new step and direction in your life. Through our discussion and this blog post, I think I know you and understand you better. I could see your passion about criminal justice, and I’m glad that was where you started in writing minor. I felt somewhat similar with you that this minor course has helped me grow and make progress in my life. Though the constant thinking and writing process, all of us found a different perspective and attitude towards ourselves and this world. I believe this is the magic of writing, and being able to keep this magic, we should keep writing. Perhaps the past experiences of writing make writing sound negative, but that is because we have never step into the field of real writing, like what we did this semester. Thanks for your reminding; that makes me realize how much we have gained in writing 220.

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