Ugh, guys. What am I doing? I don’t know where to go with this repurposing essay.
My original idea was to repurpose an essay I wrote during my first fall here at Michigan. It was for my English 125 course and I wrote about how my mother’s negative body image influenced the relationship I have with my own body. Basically it supported the notion that negative body image is taught (which is something I completely believe, I mean, no one is born wanting a thigh gap).
The assignment was to write a paper in multiple segments of, like, 200 words each, which I really enjoyed and would want to incorporate into the repurposed essay. I started the paper with some dialogue between my mom and me when I was little. The next section picked up with a transcription of some internal thoughts. A different section contributed with research facts about body image/eating disorders/mental illnesses/etc.. There were other parts too. It was a hot mess. But it ended kind of the same way it started, with a conversation between my future daughter and myself. I really like making things come full circle, even if it’s cheesy…and this was definitely cheesy.
So, if I continued with this idea, I would want to make it more narrative based. I like creating scenes, developing characters, composing dialogue, and initiating conflict. I don’t know if this approach would be the most effective way to tell this story, but, honestly, I need a new way of looking at this situation. Positive body image is something I’m very passionate about, but I’m a little burned out and need some relief.
That’s where I am right now. I’m not completely convinced. And I don’t know at what point I’m going to be convinced. I’m hoping it’s soon. Like I said, I’m kind of burned out from my positive body image crusade and need some relief. I feel like I need a break from it all.
Ugh. What am I doing?