My process has been…interesting. I love my topic but I honestly feel like no matter what I choose to do, a couple of words on a poster is not enough. However, I don’t think I could execute a video properly. So, I’m kind of looking for that perfect line, or word, that I can use to express my thousands of thoughts about the issue. Often times, I feel like my thoughts are best expressed through my essays– I find that putting sentences together, for me, is the most effective way of getting my point across. So, naturally, using another mode seems strange and foreign.
Not only that, but I don’t feel confident in my poster making skills which makes me feel insecure about this project. I don’t feel like I have the time our resources to execute this as perfectly as I’d like to. But, I know many others might feel the same way; many of our class is working with modes like satire which we’re not used to working with. And, I know that this is the nature of the assignment: to explore a mode of communication that might be outside of our comfort zone, but doing the best that we can to make it just as effective as our initial mode of our project.
I could use some help, or encouragement, rather, in staying with this mode. It’s what I have my heart set on, and I just need someone to validate that. It’s almost easier when teachers just gave you a prompt. It was dry, and boring, but I didn’t have to decide. These creative decisions seem to make me so anxious! I think to myself: “Will the class like my project? Will the teacher give me a good grade?” I need to go back to the “Shitty First Drafts” mindset, in which no draft was a bad draft, and everything was simply a product of fresh, untouched ideas.
Also, I’d like to reach out, and ask my classmates how they balance the project with module homework. I’m usually great with time management, but I just feel like I’m being pulled in so man directions right now. I want to give all of my energy to the project, but I also want to have thought-out, and thorough blog posts. I knew this project would be time consuming but I need to find a way to feel like I’m managing both the project and the homework! Maybe we should meet up in groups and do some creative thinking outside of class? Who knows! Just feeling stressed, you know! I think I just need to suck it up and get my act together–I need to channel I should go watch the Shia LeBouf motivational video. Oh, look at that, another mode to use as research!
Anyway, I’d like to preface the unveiling of my rough draft with the typical “I know this is really bad, but…” I really should stop being so insecure about my work! My rough draft is by no means where I need it to be, but I need to trust the process. A rough draft isn’t a nick name for a final draft–it’s a completely different entity. So, here’s to my shitty first draft! I’ve got a lot of work ahead of my but it will all be worth it.