For some general info on my project, click here.
After what seems like months of considering and planning, I’ve reached a point of excitement and slight impatience with my capstone project. My biggest anxiety is the song composition aspect and the ever-worrisome questions of “Can I do this? Will it be any good? Am I entirely overconfident in my musical abilities?”
Although I could fret over this from now until April 18th (and, honestly, probably will), I mainly want to just get started. This sense of antsiness has led me to begin doodling around on piano and guitar, which has calmed some of my worries (turns out, I still remember how to play piano), but I’d really just love to jump in.
I’ll continue to worry about the pending success of my song, but I feel most confident in writing in the style common with other pieces like this (the “Christian women’s ministry, warm-and-fuzzy, aesthetically-pleasing, and welcoming” style). Although I haven’t specifically researched a lot of the content I’ll discuss in my project, this style of writing is something I immensely enjoy and have picked up through my experiences with my own church and through reading other books, articles, etc. I’ll certainly need a lot of fine-tuning, but I feel much more comfortable with this than with the musical component.
This extensive brainstorming and idea-refining process has honestly been a test of my patience and determination. I’ve always hated brainstorming and am much more comfortable jumping in, getting messy, and cleaning things up later – which is a weakness. Forcing myself to sit in these ideas, carefully develop them, and consider them deeply before starting to research and create content has been a learning experience – one I begrudgingly know is good for me.
…but I’m still excited to get started.