“What’s your project about then?” (in Mandarin)
Next to a court at CCRB where four kids are having an intense double match of badminton, I’ve found myself struggling to explain my capstone project in Mandarin to this kid whom I’ve just met. “It’s about cultural differences amongst the mainland China, Taiwan, and Hong Kong”.
That was enough to bring a moment of suspense before our match. Sensitive topic. I get that. And then off we went, starting our game in an open court.
I couldn’t deny that I love putting things in order. As much as I felt conflicted about the many tiny decisions that would add up to be my capstone project as I finished off the production plan, I am excited that I have a sense of direction to look forward to, a number of components I could pinpoint to, and the level of standard I hope to achieve…except this sense of satisfaction lasted for a night and then I confused myself again: I was hesitant towards the outcome of the capstone project or more precisely, I was unsure whether how much in the production plan I would be able to achieve. This was mainly because
1) I realized that I have a total of eight components in my production plan (“Really? What was I really thinking? EIGHT components?”)
2) Half of the components are products I had zero experience in, including an oral history, a film editing, and several artifact analysis. (“What if the person kept rambling on random things during the interview? Should I stop or not stop him / her? How should I phrase my questions? What kind of tech tools do I need?”)
3) Since we are reverse engineering, I’ve found myself care about the outlook of the final project site a great deal. I want it to encompass a theme, interact with the audience in a dynamic way, and aesthetically beautiful…meaning I could spend countless hours coding a web app.
Well. I went through this series of concerns, questions, and exercise of my imagination of million possible scenarios in my mind for a 15 minute and then force myself to go play badminton to keep my mind off. I came back to these with some action steps:
- prioritize components (quality > quantity)
- start doing (looking at different artists’ and writers’ personal websites and the web building platform to see what kinds of features are feasible)
- start targeting possible interviewees (utilize the Spring Break time efficiently)
After all, I guess what’s unique about this project is the fact that we get to reverse engineer while make some discoveries in the process. Pursuing something predictable while being flexible with the unpredictable. I know my action-oriented side will get on my nerve at one point and overwhelm myself with all the doings and forget the essence of the capstone project is discovery and creativity in the process itself. So I guess for now, I just need to be extremely short-sighted and have one step at a time (and I’ve decided to join the badminton club and go work out daily to develop a routine in my schedule.)