Time is my biggest enemy.
I really like The Twilight Zone. For those of you that are not familiar with it, it is an old sci-fi TV show from the 1960’s where spooky and improbable things happen. I think a lot about this one episode where a man received a stopwatch that could pause time, and I think about all of the things that I could accomplish with all of that extra time.
I had this same problem when I was in Gateway. While in Gateway, I had an overloaded schedule, and I found myself then getting anxious that I wouldn’t have the time to do everything that I wanted to do. I found myself up late at night reading research papers to try and feed my project, and I have now also been doing the same for this Capstone project! I have come full circle.
The old fears are starting to come back. What if this project sucks? I’m starting to get the feeling that I am behind on everything, and sometimes I just need to remind myself to take a deep breath and relax because I definitely will not be able to solve anything if I am freaking out. For some context, my Capstone project is about the discussion around the lack of women in STEM, and my final project will be a podcast where I interview women of several ages in several places among the STEM pipeline while I discuss the research and thoughts behind this issue.
Things are running late for a couple of reasons. For one, I was too chicken to try and contact people when I first said that I would because reaching out to people I don’t know well for favors gives me nightmares. Second, scheduling conflicts on both my end and my interviewees’ ends have pushed back my interviews further than I wanted them to. I know that I still have another few weeks before the final project is due, but at the same time I ONLY HAVE ANOTHER FEW WEEKS BEFORE THE FINAL PROJECT IS DUE.
I’m not sure what type of advice to ask for here. It just would feel nice to know that I am not alone.