Peer editing is a great thing. But also a weird thing, at least at this stage in my writing process. The people in this class and this program are brilliant, creative minds. I always want their feedback- until I don’t. I have just turned in a small writing sample. I have written a total of one page for my project and am just not mentally prepared to have it ripped apart yet. My confidence in this piece is so low that I would not be able to defend it. I am also so unfamiliar with it that I do not think I could explain it. I did not make any active decisions yet. I do not know the narrative purpose of what I wrote, even the ending of the story. I would not be able to answer their questions or explain anything.
I also am still sensitive with my writing at this stage. It is a brand new baby, just beginning to grow and develop. I don’t want to be bombarded with questions and insults (or “suggestions”) about it. I need positive encouragement because I am still thinking about where it is going. It is not quite ready to enter the real world. I believe that peer review is such a special thing that I would never want to engage in it unauthentically. I could never ask my classmates to hold back in their comments and suggestions, doing so would make the special process superficial. The truth is I just need a little more time with my thoughts and my writing before I am ready to take the heat.