Settling into my third genre over the course of the semester, I finally feel comfortable. The words truly flow from my fingers at this point and thank God because they surely weren’t before. While I am so happy with the satisfaction I feel in my new genre, as I can now produce something to be proud of, my only lingering concern is time.
Everything came crashing down Sunday night as a prepared to hand in my rough draft. Feeling a palpable disconnect from the work I had produced, I hastily decided to scrap it all and start anew. Terrifying at the time, but worth it beyond belief. Looking forward I’m excited about the project to be completed. I finally found something that will accomplish the goals I set for myself way back in January. But I can’t shake the question in the back of my mind asking, will I?
I faced a similar scenario first semester junior year. For my journalism and social change class’s final project, in groups we had to pitch an investigative journalism project to the class. My group rolled with the first thing we thought of for a bit before realizing we had to change our topic. A few days before it was due, we were scrambling to deliver the high quality project we were hoping for. As a result, we didn’t.
While this is pretty different than my situation now as I’m pressed for weeks instead of days and I don’t have to be burdened with satisfying a group, I can’t help but think about this experience as I head into the final stages of my project. I know that I have enough time to complete something satisfactory, but I also know I’ll always be thinking that it could have been better had I been sitting with it for longer. Personally, my ideas develop over time so when I’m pressed they don’t come to me as readily. It’s when I’ve been ruminating over something for a while when my best ideas come out. So, I can’t help being anxious about the fact that my project could have been better.
Any suggestions on how to make the most out of the time I have left?