I was motivated to reflect upon myself as a writer, an identity that I have struggled to come to terms with. While I have had the opportunity to develop my writing skills every year over my undergraduate career, it took me a long time to finally call myself a writer. When I look back at my Gateway project, I cannot possibly think of what caused me to choose the topic of love and flowers, and make a full-fledged project about it. Today, it sounds so abstract to me, and I believe that perhaps three years later, I might find my Capstone project weird. This fear has stuck with me but I cannot possibly hold onto it forever, right? If that would have been the case, I would have never finished my coursework or my Gateway project for that matter.
It is very rare that I give credit to myself for writing a good piece, and I think that creditability increased a little bit last semester when I was enrolled in English 325: Art of the Essay. At first, I absolutely hated that class for I had no idea what we were even doing, how were the assignments graded, and why did we read the readings that we had to read as they were all so new to me. I was almost about to drop out of that course, but I stuck through, and after I turned in the first essay, I absolutely fell in love with the class. I understood that the professor’s teaching philosophy was not to tell, but rather showus how to write, tell, convey our stories with the audience out there.
To be fair, this is when I truly recognized myself as a writer, and came to believe that I can at leastwrite, even though I am not sure if it is “good.” This course solidified my to-go writing advice: “show, don’t tell,” and this is what I faithfully abide my whenever I sit down to write. Last semester, truly, was a push outside of my comfort zone, but I enjoyed it so much. I recognized that there were tiny instances in my life that I had overlooked but were extremely influential in my personality, perspective, and purview of everything around me, and those built my confidence as a writer that I am today.
With that, I am ready to challenge myself even more with the Capstone project and beyond, and enjoy the ride as it goes!