Well, folks. Here I am writing my second journal and it’s only…4 weeks late. I think that speaks to how this semester is going for not only me, but also some other peers I have spoken with (Okay, just Abby, you caught me). But in all honesty, this semester was supposed to be easy. I mean chilling on the couch all day doing nothing easy. Needless to say, it hasn’t been. And why? Not because I have more on my plate than I have in the past, because I definitely have the same if not less. But more so because this capstone project isn’t something you can just do. It’s kind of like my puppy – you think you have this great thing going and you’re excited about it and then it shits all over your floor. And then you take a little time to “train” it and coddle it to make it as good as possible… and then it eats a tennis ball and needs emergency surgery. And the roller coaster of “wins” to “losses” keeps going for basically forever.
This project has many highs and lows. I’ve learned a lot from it that I haven’t learned in previous writing classes I’ve taken. Normally, and granted I’m not proud of this, I would grab some Redbull and 5 Hour Energy the night before an essay was due and write it all night. Although it was stressful, I got it done and I got it done well (I’m not sure if I want to provide textual evidence for this claim, so just believe it). But this, this isn’t something I can just pull out of my ass overnight. I’ve tried writing bits and pieces of it like that, and maybe it’s because my new old-person bedtime is 10pm now, but it really just hasn’t been working. So I guess my point is that this project is different and I’ve been learning how to deal with these differences throughout the semester. Perhaps I could’ve chosen an easier topic, but this project just seems so important that I feel like it should be a struggle, y’know? I guess we’ll see how it turns out – and I’m sure hoping it doesn’t seem like it was written overnight.