Oh my god. We are so close to the due date for our project and there could be nothing more stressful than the fact that I need to get so much done within the next 6 or 7 weeks. AHHHHH!
Clearly, this capstone project has taken a toll on my overthinking capacity. As I think about the website, the introduction, the podcasts, the reflection – SO MANY PARTS; the more I find myself asking myself: “Am I making the right choices?”
I still remember in Gateway how Ray had told my class that we all will be making some incredible choices when it comes to developing the website, some choices that may seem usual to us – such as colors, layout, structure. Surprisingly, I wasn’t this stressed about my Gateway project as I am now. (Or I just don’t remember being so stressed…?)
Anyhow, I need to time and again remind myself that I need to believe in my project and in the topics that I want to share with everyone else in this whole world. More than the project being about ‘right’ and ‘wrong,’ it will be unique in its own way. I just need to pull myself together and develop some tangible, concrete content that SHOWS me my project than just TELLS me. (oh well, I have the showing, not telling writing mantra here!)
On a brighter note, I have found subjects who are willing to be interviewed and open themselves through conversations around beauty standards – which can lead to some triggering content. I have been successful in drafting up my own personal reflections (on the topics) which haven’t been terrible so far. I am interviewing one of my interviewees next week!
With such small successes in place, I feel better about the progress but still the questions linger: What if this goes terribly wrong? What if this doesn’t turn out the way I want it to?