My biggest issue throughout this whole capstone process has been the worth the project has both to me and to others. As I have progressed in writing and designing, I have become excited and slightly obsessed with every minor detail pertaining to my project. But now that I have more, I look at it and I wonder if it’s even something, well, good.
I guess its hard to classify something as good or not when there is no model for exactly how it is supposed to look. Simply put, it’s so subjective it kind of hurts. But despite whether or not people enjoy my color palette choice or the placement of my paragraphs, is the content even going to help anyone, or even me? Obviously I’m writing something I care enough about that I have chosen to spend a disgusting amount of time focusing on it. So for me, yeah there has to be some kind of benefit to spending all of this time on these ideas. But what about others?
I am most definitely not the only female athlete, or woman in general, who struggles with body image and self worth within sports and fields of life. Body image and the way women are looked at by men and other women is pretty dense in itself as a topic. But in knowing so much about it through my own personal struggles and pains, I felt that writing about body image and snarky comments you hear a dumbass say to your best friend while out at the bar in comparison to what a bitchy judge deducts off of a gymnastics routine was relevant and actually unique. The ten point scale of attraction and just general value sucks. We judge food out of a ten, people on Tinder, that hot guy in the coffee shop, trips, sometimes exams, situations, and even accuracy (I make a three point shot 1 out of 10 times. I am a 1 in basketball). And most of the time, there isn’t a specific perfect situation for any of these things because it is, don’t say it Liv, subjective. But gymnastics shouldn’t be subjective because there are skills being done that have specific expectations, but it really just is so subjective. So hopefully someone reads my website and realizes that maybe we do make numerical judgments a lot and maybe we should start to realize that numerical judgments of people is just not it. We can’t change gymnastics judging (or can we, muahahaha), but we can change how we judge others just by the awareness of using less numerical ratings.
Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.